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Wednesday, October 24th, 2007
9:43 pm	Design Concept: Disappearing Wall Stairs Should Be In Every Millionaire's Home Way Cool looking but I'd be afraid of getting stuck upstairs without downstairs. :) Aaron Tang's wall stairs are meant for living areas that are short on space, but they're so awesome that I'd want them even if I had 1,000,000 sq. ft. house. They work by having the frame of the stairs slide out from the wall, powered by hydraulic pistons, and having the stair planks fold over the frame one at a time. When finished, the stair frame slides back in the wall and the planks stand straight up, flush against the wall. Imagine, next time you're at a mansion/estate/castle party, you walk into the foyer to find no stairs at all. Then the owner hits a button on a remote and stairs appear from the wall. I'm pretty sure your mind would be blown. [Aaron Tang via Architechnophilia via TreeHugger] Blogged with Flock (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 10th, 2007
7:15 pm	Thanks everybody for listening! This morning I was in a down spell but now I am back to happy/touched after getting home to such caring comments/emails. Of course,  after thinking about it I do feel bad if I made any of you feel bad about not be able to come, my negativity was so self absorbing I didn't think about your feelings. However now that I a back to rational again I do believe y'all will forgive me.  By the way, I have a tendency for these irational mood swings that can go from feeling on top of the world to worthless waste of skin all in the span of a day. In fact, I sometimes think that if I get too happy about something going well I almost look for something to bring me down so I don't get used to be too happy.  However, the reverse happen a lot too, I get really down but then I can be laughing about something a moment later. Guess that could be the good side of ADD getting distracted easily from being down? Enough self analysium (at least for now as I am thinking on using LJ as a way to chart my emotions). Thank you all again! (Comment on this)
7:29 am	Can't get back to sleep so might as well post something While I was able to fall asleep last night I keep waking up after about 4am. Finally I woke myself up crying at 6am and I couldn't get back to sleep. Old negative thoughts mixing with new stress I guess. Nothings wrong really just stupid feelings I shouldn't be having anyways. Like feeling rejected when 2/3rds of the wedding invites come back as not able to come when I know I picked a popular date and that the location is expensive/hard to get to for most people. Still couldn't seem to stop it from making me feel small and invisible again like I am not a real person. Other stupid thoughts follow like... (whole long chain of self absorbed self pitying drama queen stuff snipped). OK enough stupid stuff self because I know I have more positive things going on in my life now then every before. I also know it is mainly my own fears of rejections along with my introverted personality that have keep me from forming larger circles of closer friends.  Besides I do not need to win any popularity contest to feel worthwhile.  I am not the little girl kids threw rocks at and spit on anymore. I am a grown adult and I am in control of my own life.  Ack I sound like Stewart Smalley. I am good enough and smart enough and gosh darn it people like me! :) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
10:48 pm	No Drive Thru Jokes Please So I wake up this morning and decide to check the weather before heading into work when I see a news story about a truck hiting the CVS wear I work. My first thought is wait April fool's was last weekend. Tanker crashes into CVS http://rdu.news14.com/content/your_news/triangle/?AC=&ArID=102741 Updated: 4/3/2007 8:34 AM By: News 14 Carolina Staff  RALEIGH -- A tanker truck ran through the front of a CVS on Tuesday morning. It happened just before 6:30 a.m. at the CVS on the corner of Glenwood Avenue and Millbrook Road in Raleigh. Police say the driver was inside the Shell gas station across the street when his truck rolled across the road, over the curb and into the front of the store. The store was not open at the time and there are no injuries. Police say the truck is full of gasoline but does not pose a threat. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Unmanned Tanker Slams Into Raleigh Drug Store Posted: Today at 7:16 a.m. Updated: Today at 4:39 p.m. Raleigh — The idea of a drive-thru pharmacy took on a whole new meaning in North Raleigh Tuesday morning, when a tanker truck rolled across six lanes of Glenwood Avenue and crashed into the window of a CVS Pharmacy at Millbrook Road. The truck had been parked at a nearby Shell gas station when it rolled across the highway, dodging utility poles and several signs before smashing into the CVS store. The tanker truck, loaded with gasoline, took out a brick wall and shattered the front door. But it stopped short of the cosmetics aisle. The store, which hadn’t opened for the day, was empty and no one was injured. Police said the trucker, who drives for Huffman Oil Company, went inside the station to get a meter reading before unloading the fuel. When he came back out, his truck was in the drug store. None of the gasoline in the trailer leaked out, police said. "We were very lucky this morning,” said Raleigh Police Capt. Terrie Hardy. “here was light traffic due to spring break, and (it happened at) 6:20 in the morning." CVS trucker Mike Shiflett was driving from Virginia when he heard about this accident on the radio. He thought nothing of it until he made his first stop. "The manager of this store, his wife came in and said 'No, there's a truck that run into the CVS and it'll probably be a long time before you make a delivery,’” Shiflett said. By early afternoon, a wrecker pulled the rig out from beneath the store’s "Welcome" sign. Investigators have not said whether it was driver error or a mechanical problem that caused the truck to roll away. A CVS spokesperson says it's not clear when the store will be ready to re-open.  http://www.wral.com/news/local/story/1257985/ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 25th, 2007
7:31 pm	Looking for a good Wedding Gown Alteration Tailor Based on the advice of editgirl, I decided that want a tailor to at least look at the dress to see if they can make it fit better but the place that she recommended looks like it has gone out of business. Looking on Citysearch, I found a place called Duke's Tailor that won their Best of the Triangle 2007 Tailor award and they are located across from Crabtree Mall behind Circuit city so they should't be hard to get too. Apparently they have been here since the 1980's and it looks like they have changed name's a couple of times (formerly Van's Tailor and LiLi Tailor). Have any of you used them or heard anything about them?  Best Tailor 2007 You voted for the best Tailor in the Triangle, and we counted. Check out the results below.     Audience & Editorial Winner 1. Duke's Tailor 4701 Creedmoor Rd , Raleigh , NC , 27612-4500 Alterations and custom-made apparel for men and women with a specialty in wedding attire; rush services available. (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 24th, 2007
8:00 pm	Wedding Dress I finally got the Wedding Dress today with vivelaliberte help. If any of you want to see pictures just email me, I would post them but I don't want to tempt geekwithabeard to peak at the dress before the wedding. While I was planning on going to BridalMart, this dress just felt like the right one plus it was more then a hundred less then other dress I saw and it fit my right off the rack so I don't need to pay extra for alterations except maybe to hem the bottom up half an inch if I choose to wear flats instead of heels.  Now I just to need to get the veil along with some other accessories like perhaps something like a silver pin, a sash or a bow to blend in the detachable train with the rest of the dress a little better. Also, I still need help figuring out what makeup to get since I don't normal wear any and I don't want to over do it. Plus, I am deciding whether to wear contacts just for the wedding or whether to just get new frames since I normally don't wear contacts plus I am over do for new glasses. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
4:18 am	Insomnia wins again and Wedding News Wedding news.. Too much stress to plan two big receptions.  While we do still plan to have a wedding video party in our home when the DVD is done, we are now inviting our local friends to come to the wedding in NY. This means I only have the one wedding/reception thingy to stress myself out which is still enough to keep me awake tonight. SIGH!!! My goal for the next few weeks along with getting out invites, is to pick the wedding dress. I even made an appointment to go to David's Bridal this Saturday at 10am (hopefully I get some sleep before then) and I am thinking of checking out abridalworld.com right after. Then if I haven't found a great deal I thought I check out the hugh bridalmart.com thingy next weekend. My goal is to have the dress by Easter so that my parents can drive it back to NY when they come to visit rather then having to ship it. I know I didn't reply to the early comments offering to help me, (I was still in the panic hide head in sand until forced to deal with wedding being less then 4 months away stage) but if any of you still want to help me pick the dress either at David/Bridal world this weekend or on the road trip to the bridalmart next weekend, I would really appreciate it.  Really sad that I am so shy that I was nervous about asking a few friends to help me shop for a dress when I am going to be getting married in front of a whole group of people. Still I really think it will be different because all the planning stress will be gone and I can just focus on the fact that I am getting to marry my happily every after man. :-) OK Self now you posting something and made progress on the wedding thing.. you can sleep. No... no rewriting the post, just too bed now! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007
6:27 am	Insomnia Part 2007 Guess this counts as my first sleepless night for 2007. The stream of unstoppable thoughts started with the idea that it is now only about 6 months to the weddings and I still have so much stuff to decide on and get done.  Table shapes round or square to my Cousin so she can plan how many centerpieces Have to set up final prewed counseling meeting and pick the readings Need to create Invites to NY and NC with directions etc  Dress (once I get it I am sure I will gain or lose a ton of weight so it won't fit right) NC reception site Have to book Cake place and pick design Need to get my Birth cert to get passport or I will miss my own Honeymoon! :-( Instead of actually making headway on any of these, I got my just turned level 39 Warlock halfway to level 40 in WOW. Wish I could win on of those instant wedding things and just have to show up at the right place. Yes I know I am stressing out about something that is so postive. Maybe I am punishing myself with stress because I am so happy? Can't think anymore too tired. Now that its about time for me to get up to go to work I think I am finally tired enough to sleep for an hour or so before the alarm goes off.  Good Night/Morning LJ Current Mood: sleepy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 18th, 2006
7:06 am	Broccoli Has An IQ Of 10!? I found a clip of the broccoli video on YouTube at  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lf8SIGpw5do Enjoy! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 15th, 2006
11:58 pm	Nothing to say Nothing nothing nothing to say but a wish to say something anyway I waste my time with random phrases Passing over depth just filling spaces Don’t care what I say or how I say it just get the..... w.. ..o ....r .....d .......s out Rip the stopper off my bottle Let go of control and let out a bit of my soul Is there anything behind my fear? Am I so far buried into my self that I’ve nothing to share? Or do I simply hide the fact that there is nothing here? ................................................................................. Carrie never looked for trouble but somehow it always seemed to find her. Yes she was supposed to be babysitting her twin cousins that were visiting for the holidays but she was only one girl! Sure if she had listen to her mom and had just let them watch the latest Disney movie for the 100th time they wouldn't have discovered that nail polish remover would take the paint off the walls. She really didn't think that it showed up that much anyways since it was only in the back corner of the living room. Carrie stared at the stain and remembered all the times she had been made to stand in that corner when she was younger. She ran her finger long the crease thinking about how she had imaged it would open up to another world if she only knew the secret…  her finger touched something beneath the wallpaper that fell like a zipper. She pulled her hand back as if she’d been burned.  No way!  She cautiously put her hand back. Definitely something there and she could see it outline clearly now she knew where to look. Gingerly she ran her finger along the edge and the paper seemed to melt away reveling a golden zipper running the length of the wall. Just then she noticed that the old flower ring she had found in her closet years ago had started to glow a bright green. Without thinking about she touched the back of her ring to the zipper and immediate it unzipped itself leaving a huge gapping hole. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
2:00 am	Insomnia Yet again I can't sleep because my mind is too busy so I get up to surf the net and end up skimming my LJ friends page. This of course reminds me that I have been meaning to post more often. This time however I get the idea to post something quick like "I can't sleep again" so that I can both use LJ to track my insomnia to see if there is a pattern and also post more often. Samples thoughts going through my head... Things I should have done better at work since I have been there 2 months and should know everything by now. Need to set up GRE study schedule plus pick REAL deadline for taking it. Must contact Pre-Marriage Lady and the MBPI test Lady again. Need to deposit checks. Need to write check and mail deposit to DJ/Video guy. Should follow up with Photo guy and also try to get some more quotes. Have to finished another pharmacy training CD and get ready for pharm tech test in one month. Have to finish my Online UNC Grad class reading and homework by this friday. Should be spending more time with friends and family Need to put together wedding announcement, invite list and second local friends reception list. Need to book a place for the second reception Wait.. I know there is more stuff.. OH that another thing I keep thinking about, if I am completely forgetting things that are more important then the things I remember.  OK it is 2:22 am. I am going to try the sleeping thing again. (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 9th, 2006
9:55 pm	Pulseware Advanced Personality Quiz Hmm a little closer to me but still not perfect. Maybe I should just wait for the next gen quizes that will scan your brain directly. :) My Personality Neuroticism 62 Extraversion 33 Openness To Experience 96 Agreeableness 77 Conscientiousness 48 Test Yourself Compare Yourself View Full Report MySpace Surveys, Ugg Boots and MySpace Layouts by Pulseware Survey Software (Comment on this)
9:42 pm	Pulseware Quick Personality Quiz I don't think these quiz results match me completely, maybe I will try the longer quiz and take more time to think about my answers. My Personality Neuroticism 58 Extraversion 57 Openness To Experience 99 Agreeableness 74 Conscientiousness 40 Test Yourself Compare Yourself View Full Report MySpace Surveys, Ugg Boots and MySpace Layouts by Pulseware Survey Software (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 27th, 2006
1:20 pm	New Job It's offical I have a new job, Pharmacy Technician in training. Plus since I am starting Monday on July 31th, it will look like I didn't have any gap in employment on my resume (prior job end June 2006 and new job start July 2006). Work one day get a whole month's credit, nice huh? :) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
11:06 pm	Happy 4th of July Happy 4th of July Everybody! I celebrated my own independence day a bit early last week by quiting my job of over 6 years so I can focus on finally getting my Masters Degree after starting on one 10 years ago. I will also be celebrating the end of my independence/loneliness this week too since I meet geekwithabeard in person for the first time one year ago this Thursday. Next year at this time, on 07/07/07 we will be celebrating our wedding day.  Talk about a lot of fireworks! :) Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Friday, April 28th, 2006
10:36 am	If you ask... Meme Found on the LJs of ashears and arthane If you ask... 1. I'll respond with something I like about you. 2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I'll name something we should do together. 4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me). 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you. 7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you, if I have such a thought. 8. If I do this for you, please post this on your journal so you can do the same for other people. --------------------------------------------------------------- Figure this should be quite a challenge for me if any of you reply since I have known most of my LJ friends less than a year plus names/events/people tend to get mixed up in my head. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
3:28 pm	ADD/ADHD Info for Partners I just sent geekwithabeard the following list articles on how ADD affects the non-ADD partner as a heads up before we tie the knot. Looking over these articles again, I feel kinda like a used car and this is my carfax "lemon check" printout. :( Hmmm maybe I need to find some more postive links on ADD? http://www.adders.org/infopartners.htm adders.org - Information for Partners Information for Partners How Do You Cope With An ADD Spouse?   How a Partner's Untreated Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity (ADHD) Affects Relationships   The Impact of ADHD on Marriage   Why a Support Group for Partners of People with AD/HD?   The Psychosocial Functioning of Children and Spouses of Adults With ADHD   ADHD and Marital/Family Satisfaction: A preliminary study   ADD and Intimate Relationships   Marriage and AD/HD: A Couple's Survival Guide   Relationship Issues for Adults with ADHD (Comment on this)
Friday, April 7th, 2006
4:51 pm	Aunt Gail My Aunt Gail just died after a long battle with Cancer. All I can think is that I should have made more time to visit her and my Uncle Mike the last time I went to see my parents. http://medical.goskagit.com/news.php?article=news04 The art of healing By Samantha Sordyl, © 2005, The Washington Post WASHINGTON — Research suggests that nature scenes can lower stress levels in some hospital patients. Mike Pfister, a retired major general, and his wife, Gail, would agree. Visiting Walter Reed Army Medical Center the past 10 years — as Gail Pfister underwent chemotherapy, stem cell transplants and radiation treatments for multiple myeloma, a cancer of bone marrow cells — the Alexandria, Virg., couple has admired the colorful, serene photos by California photographer Robin Constable Hanson. Some 700 of Hanson's photos appear throughout the medical center; hundreds more hang in other Washington area medical facilities. As a patient, said Pfister, "there's nothing worse than the bare halls of most hospitals, and (these photos) lift you right out of the hospital and into gardens and waterfalls — it definitely lifted me."  (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
3:17 pm	Spinning My emotions are a spinning whirlwind. Can't pin them down for they twist away too fast to put a finger on or a thought too. Yet I feel a deeper me waking in the chaos. Somehow I know there are words of truth within me even though I can't quite process them now. Life has become disconnected and dreamlike. Through it all shades of love overlap my thoughts lifting me up higher and happier than I ever thought possible. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
10:31 pm	Dad Update From: Dick & Judy Date: Mar 21, 2006 8:22 PM Subject: Bad news Stage 111 more Cancer To: Daphne, Elizabeth Elizabeth and Garner, Daphne, friends and family The PET test and cat scan found stage 3 Lymphoma which may require 6 treatments of 4 drugs called the CHOP regimen BEGINNING next Tuesday Morning 9am with treatments about every three weeks. Gail has taken all of these drugs. I hope that I can tolerate them. I should be tired and weak part of the time and will lose my hair* so Beth you may have a odd looking father at you wedding. Gardening may be out. I can't do anything that can bruise me. So wish me luck and say a prayer that you may never have to go through such treatments. Keep Judy in your prayers as I may be harder to live with over the Spring and summer, Love, Dick *What hair? Seriously, I'm very proud of Dick for being willing to go through the treatments. He wasn't going to at first. The doctor is very optimistic. She says his kind of lymphoma can be cured. We have scheduled his treatments so he should be feeling relatively well over Easter break. We'll probably leave the afternoon of April 13 and arrive late in the afternoon of April 14. I imagine we'll stop on the way to visit Mary and Bruce and Mike and Gail. We'll leave on about the 18th. We're looking forward to seeing you. Love, Judy (Comment on this)